This Is A Letter To My Almost

Would you believe me if I told you that you made me feel again? For a few months of my life, you brought me happiness in such little time. My past had led me to believe that I wouldn’t experience this feeling again. I found myself randomly smiling all day. Those nights we stayed up till 3 am were the best. You allowed yourself to open up to me and I can’t tell you how much it meant. I was okay with losing sleep because It was to stay up talking to you.

I remember how you looked when you talked to me, you always looked me in my eyes. I wish that I could have pressed pause on the time. To have the chance to memorize you. God those eyes. I would see your eyes in every hazel pair of eyes. I shared all my thoughts and secrets with you. Things I’ve never told anyone. I’m glad I did because now I could breathe again and I feel peace. I told you that I felt like things were too good right now and I was just waiting for things to change. Well, it happened but just too soon. I never planned on you changing your mind.

Maybe it was bad timing for us, or that I couldn’t give you what you wanted. Either way, I thank you for the memories and feelings that you left with me. I thank you for showing me it’s okay to trust again. I think that people come in our lives for a reason. Maybe your reason was to show me it was okay to let my guard down. I sincerely thank you for helping me be the best version of myself. I know that I am worth being loved and treasured. Thank you for sharing your world with me and for letting me be a part of it

I’ll always have a soft spot for you, and I’ve accepted it. Time was just taking its sweet time erasing you, but tonight I have decided to fully let you go. I’ve met someone new and although he’s not you, it brings me happiness to know that he wants all of me. Not just a piece of me. I hope you find exactly what you’re looking for. And know that I’ll always be here for you, no matter how far off we both wander.

Sincerely,

Your almost

P.S. I never told you, but I was falling for you

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Astra is a twenty-something madness who likes to write short stories that are, kind of like her, barely there. Her soul is happiest when she is reading, or being around people who lift up her spirits.

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